HarLeqUin

in the name of allah the most gracious n most merciful

while im writing this…bla2(my intro sux ler)baru noticd yg my hp just servd i purpose:messaging home :p
*haks just nk kasitau yg i got a nu 2nd-handed hp
the alarm-clock doesnt work cause usually woken up by sound of leaves-sweeping.
it’s been the whole year he/she swept an hour or 2 early b4 ppl wake up !
talking about work and consistent yea?X)
sounded boring rite?surely it is.but for one with responsibilities, it’s the priority that matters.

define boring.suits the things yg paling ur not looking fwd to.
its just unproductive.
i just come to my senses pasal last post.it was sluggishly written.
how ok izit to be in denial.it is NOT.well logic is fun.its like pathphysio-ing.
in order to get the most accurate answer,kne lah haf loads to concur.then things tend to be more interesting!
and experiences speak the matter.note:do not try on people :p

for the state on being denial,(if it concerns relationship;then it was cerita zaman kanak2 dlu)
it shows ur true color.i never felt liking a person figurely-motivated in and out.
for me,the thing(read:in denial)is not that i was meant for her,but a person like she(read:my dreamt girl)do exist!
really,the feeling of liking ppl on ur own desire;bkn sebb pervert n stuff,is blissful!
past relations(read:lol)was really just for fun(read:experiences).
i dont blame others cause it was never worked.
she is really crushing my life rite now.really hope time stops when im wif her(baca:tgh jiwang lol)

i like her(read:at the moment).i like all about her.tapi part sedihnye,she doesnt belong(baca:haf feeling)wif me.
i dont care cause,the felt of liking by heart,really make it sincere.
i know that she’ll read dis,and mayb blushing(read:totally denying dis),then just acting cool with it lol:

im saying this because i know there is a better person for her(read:im not her type imho).
well there is age issues:i got dis from my ustaz back on kisas
quoting’umor isteri idle=divide ur age by half and sum it with 5′ :p
i dunno why,but this stuff really stucked hard into my head(baca:nak isteri muda lah tu :D)
that is why i knew that there is a better one for her.
i’m really ok wif this.if things run turntable(read:she likes me)then lets takdir lah yg menentukan im JUST fine for JUST liking her.i know she knew it,yet she just cool wifit lol.
one thing i learned is she got dis feeling of being liked(read:who doesn’t :p)

cool things bout her is,she knows whats important for her.
ofc she haf thoughts that she is just another toying stuffs for me and aware of dis.every girls shud hav tot of that!
sape x suke girl yg genuine(read:funny,sexy,educated+++).
the most imprtant stuff is dat,i just nk ingtkan yg if u like sumbdy fully-hearted,it is really ease to haf a sincere feeling~
im not making way for her for a decent relation.
i just want to show her how is it felt to be liked(read:not loved).
it just up to her.she also improvised a lot in my life.mayb x perasan,just like to state here.

i know that i cant be wif you,but feeling that you are around really made me lively!

that were mostly about u ain!

footnote:
-lets we all smile and haf a cheerful day,yeay!

bismillahirrahmanirrahim
dis was really delusional.last post was about 2 months ago.

screw me lah.too much experience in those naked time.

i force my sleepy eye to bare wif this.

i hate planning my life: setting boundaries.

samelah time tgh menulis ni.it made ur head spin.

meaning: trying to sort things out to be smoothly understandable
ok la.well just let it started so that senang nk cncntrate whats more imprtant~

the post-writing about my holiday lah,is heart thumping.

some lame-romantic questions:

1-how to unscramble egg

2-camane nk turn back time

o sumsorts soalan lah.i mean to undone impossible stuffs.

just go figure urself okie.but for me,yg pentingya the result of the doing la.

means dat,for ex~xde la nak kacau/pukol telor klo nk scramble eggs kan.

n same stuffs go la.

flaw.

i dunno bout other,but i am trying to be perfect as i could.

tp seme org mane la perfect all out.at least there are tryouts to be one.

ah,i really made stupid mistakes.positvely:think on the doing

reminisce really made my head spin.

how to rest ur spinning head?-take evrything that ur doing as an ibadah

n ibadah tu mestilah ikhlas.so that resultnye akan puas hatilah

so the past mistakes?:learn from it!

if u dont want scrambled-egg,dont scramble it~

but sumtimes life is unexpected.well thats the beauty of it.

see how all of dis had been planned.so i really haf to bersyukurla:

still can breath at this moment n still doing things i shud’ve done
responsible as human ni besarlah.when u think big,surely it wont b small:

vice versa.

mase yg berlalu ni mestilah kne gune btol2.

as if i wanna ended stupidly my youthful life.mestila kne ade swweet memories!

well what i learned until now is,evrybody like good peeps.

so im gonna jadi baiklah ni.haks~

takdelah sia2 ramadhan yg lepas(wpun tarawikh x full T________T)

taknak lah puase sekadar menahan lapar rite
speaking bout ramadhan,mesti haf a word o so bout raya!

well taun ni mmg mls sgt2 pasal masak2 ni.

people tend to be selfish(sedang m’perbaiki diri):

so i tend not to cook anything hari raye lpas~

that was the plan la:nak makan kat open house je

but amazingly,lpas rase open house org:mmg la tak puas lgsg!

not to my taste la:so later that nite, a cook to half dead all raya typical food!

rendang,lontong,nasik impit(pau rum8nyer instant)n kuah kacang
the thing is,tak mkn pon lpas masak cume nk feel raye je.

n sedap tu i dunno la,sbb masak sendri lah:still puas!

same as others oversea raya celebs:i was not enjoying muc

up until last nite.o maybe past 2-3 nites.

when i realized how others effected my life until skarang.

those stuffs dont came up abruptly.it does need concerns~

i really bersyukur sgt2 as my life until now sgtlah bahgia-moga2 drahmati

but how flaw i can be towards other,importantly to my god:Allah

so ppl around me really improvised my life!

sumtimes i do get stuffs as in denial(LOL)…its okay though:

once i know it is the fact that sumthing i could not reach upon:im just cool with it
mayb dis sounded hypocrit/ego etc2 lah,as long me  n ppl around are happy:

just cool it
for this,i am real for being thankful!

ps-

1.i need more exercises la sbb more ppl ckp i da sexy
2.always be a gud person lah:more senyum etc2

3.i really fed up wif my own cooking~need xtra hands lol

4.surely i’ll cont dis:da ngtuk ar~

5.selamat hari raya n maaf zahir batin!

in the name of allah the most gracious n the most merciful

its 2nd of syaaban oready and ramadhan is not far now.
truthfully though,as a muslim kalam Allah mmg byk kebaikan menyebutnya.
so dat in evrything we are doing, bile sebut je name allah, akn mengingatkan kpdNya.
im saying dis sebab tak nak rase in what im writing since 2005 is a wasteful thing.
mmg selalu kena diperingatkan.

since lepas kisas,mmg la sgt kurang peringatan to myself.
aku ni mmg type selalu depend on ppl.mayb sebab of my history of having asthma.
mmg terasa sangt lemah.dis sickness really effect the way of mylife.
it was an acute one.surely i am being too depending.
at that time inhaler is my lover.the feeling ble dpt inhale oxigen,made my day,my life!
yah mmg marah klo aku terlalu depend on ubat.
he rather tgk aku termengah-mengah tanpa ubat.
but ape yg mmpu aku bwat.i was too fatigue trying to haf a deep-clean breath.
yes,inhaler is my lover.it so much pain to endour.aku kecik lagi tyme peparu masih la sgt lemah.

kekadang aku macm nk menangis tgk budak2 yg kena asma.
but wut my father had done,really for my own good.
being independent.but i was really too small at that time.
it surely crave wut i am being right now.
bile aku sakit,taumatized ke, i really needed sumthing to keep me back to normal.
at that time,barulah aku realized knapelah susah aku nk sembuh to this kind of sickness.
im too dependent!
love included~

aduh aku mmg tgh angau la skang ckp psl cinta ni.
pengaruh bile tgk membe2 da stat kawen cuti neh.mmg trigin la jgak
sape la yg taknak kawen?
love-a heart pumping feeling.same je mcm asma.suffocating,tiring,oxygen-depleting~
i really need inhaler for dis kind of sickness.
yes i am a sickly dependent patient when it comes to love.
well luckily, dah jumpe inhaler neh
the sad part is,die dtg not at the rite time and place.
mmg sangat-sangatlah sedih~

y i said so?its just simple.
love is not stuff that u r freely can toy with-it concerns feelings
mmg lah bukan rezki aku as she came out of nowhere n then,totally made my day.
the feeling of having the person u wanted all ur life,just next to u:
macm aku rasa hepi sgt ble dpt inhaler time kena asma.
all the gud feeling that u haf wanted.but sadly, it is at the wrong time.
maybelah jugak aku melayan perasaan ni sgt T.T
dgr lagu,tgk cite yg all relate to love… xD
saje carik penyakit~

tapi klo too dependent,it will really make u go addict.
sbb tu ayah tak kasik aku pakai inhaler kerap sgt.just when really needed only.
by i was 12 rasenye, baru lah boleh cntrol usage inhaler ni.
kekadang tu, adela sampai menangis tahan taknk pakai inhaler tyme kna asma.
penahlah sampai aku berlari keliling rumah,then dok bilik tutup muka dgn bantal:
just letting myself go as tired i can be, so that aku boleh tdo.
but still i cant.tyme tu la ade la jugak rase nk mati je pon lagi baik xD
mixed stuffs come over your head when u cannt think properly~
next thing i know was im in icu dat time.
there was only my father,stood coolly.he watched me proudly imo xD
as for me,it was a very refreshing happiness,stomach filled wif flowers-
when i have been given an inhaler!

well that was surely me.a sicked-lonely-ashtmatized person.
time ni,mmg la aku rase nak lari je fr angau neh.
mayb demam membe2 kawen tak habis lagi kot.
so aku just follow the flow.
nnti biler stat cter post-marriage stuff…haaa baru nak tenganga
but seriously,dis sickness really what had shaped me the way i am now.
aku suka memperingatkan  saje,kot2 nnti terlupa.
aduh,cinta,kawen…seme ni pasal tanggungjawab.
sungguhlah tak bes klo bebankan diri dgn tjawab baru sbb aku pon byk cite lain kne bwat.
but truthfully n personally,
having these kinda feeling and receiving it truly made my day,my life~

mula dengan nama tuhanku,Allah yg maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani!

as i am writing now, i am rigidly perplex of being alone now!!
short noticed,my rum8 kne take urgent flite back to s’pore-family matters.
so,tinggal sensorang lah ni~
mixed feeling extly when u tinggal sensorang~
fidgeting all over ur ol stuff…writing blog(==")etcetera2~
all of a sudden,sedar2 wah sungguh semak bilik aku kne tinggal besampah!
pasrah la disitu.
esok je la plan kemas.
omw!masyaAllah.time tu jugak la da stat perasan.
one of my stupid habit.delay on doing stuffs.
i once wrote bout dis(jangan bertangguh).but still,see until now it become more contagious!

‘hiccups’~:D im still young!
for note, statement atas tu takde kne mengena.
lately slalu sedu.
tggulah nnti carik artikel psl hiccups.
ok back to topic asal.
where was i.ok…

i came to my ol notes dat i brought back fr malaysia.
cute little notes joted on dis special notebook.
wah,ble bace2 balik,sugguhlah saye ni seorang yg sgt sensitif.
truth call here,it is not fr my mom,but from my father humble gene
of course everybody idol their pops.yes as a father figure.
on top of that,my father,he gets all my respect as a trustworthy man.
as i see from back at his time,yet sampai sekarang lelaki mmglah sgt susah nak percaya.(in term of having firm stand on relationship)
!!!!
i also included.mungkin byk lagi kne belajar xD
speaking so, maybe his life potrayed what he is being now.
wow.seriously dad,ur my superhero.only allah knows.

how i can i be truthful?
men are full of deceit.
thats y i hate seeing family broken into pieces by dis shitloads.
but y are there so many temptations yg boleh sgt sampai boleh percaye?
wah menyampahnye aku dgr kate2 manis kuar dari mulut laki skang neh.
aweks pon same lah jgak.
its not im in denial.
it is the fact that im facing now.
mungkinlah aku tak nmpak lagi sistem berfamily tu sebg sumthing yg berfaedah lagi.
tp knapalah lembut sgt hati2 hawa yg aku jumpa?
itulah yg kite panggil nafsu.

im not blaming anyone about this.
but i see myself being pitiful about dis condition.
sebb utamanya lately ramailah membe2 yg setaun jagung nih  dah masuk  alam  kahwin.
trend ke?pengaruh ke?dtng seru ke?
well there are more for myself that can argue on dis.
mungkin sebg peringatn lah.
of not being bertangguh2 in doing sumthing.
lol, dont get the wrong idea here.
i am surely not bertangguh for not marrying at dis youthful life of mine

to be cont…..

0154 on dark-chilly saturday morning~

i didnt sleep well dis summer season.no such fixed sleeptime.
maybe sbb intake caffein seblom tdo.so ble tdo tyme siang,byklah mimpi ngarut2!
very light headed evrytime i woke early in mid tengahari xD.

i think haf dis feeling of disavow about having relationship.
its wut we called sacred thing,thou need to b respected.
mayb dis update haf sumthing to differ from the earlier view.
yes i admit,bkn semua relation will end up badly.
bila ada all the gud ingredients inside it.all will mixed up well.
tapi mmg sangat tak setuju bile remaja setahun jagung mau kawen awal.
aduh, dats wut happen when u set a deadline for urself on having marriage.
that what is happening to me.
no offense ok.maybe i just haf only the bad idea of early marriage.
while not seeing the gud ones
personally,really for me there are more bad stuffs rather than the positve value about early marriage.

well again,semua tu opinion jer.
semua kata2 bole dtrima o dtolak kcuali kata2 fr rasulullah saw.
mungkin dis past few days i went met sum ol folks here.
yg share cte2 jiwang ol skul derang.well evryone haf one rite.
one thing la yg i found about myself is i really hate w8ing.on everything!
sbb tu la kot, i ended by myself back all alone.

mmg btul.menunggu ni sgt memenatkan.ade je yg endour je(in relationlah)
it all start back on wut ur hope for in the beginning.depend on yourself actually.
for me,klo btul2 ikhlas, all will end in happiness.i mean niat mula2 la.
so nnti takde la just having 1-sided relation o miscommunication.
i really had enuf of dis pretending of loving stuff.
my fren onece said,’ko kne kenal seme pompuan baru la tau which suit u the best’.
dont take dis lightly ok.ade betulnye.tapi ble seme laki pk camni, sbb tu la awal2 lagi aku dah ckp jgn pecaye laki skang! xD

takde la risau psl diri sendiri.sbb ade la blajar fr pengalamn sikit-sikit.
but still learning lah.
aku ni jenis yg tak suke zahirkan feeling lah.pemalu orgnya..hahhahaha
so klo ade feeling for sumone tu, i just rather kept it.mcm secret admirer la.
mmg total lame if said so.but for it its just the rite stuff.
apemende la skang ni yg paling aku x fhm n tak setuju psl coupling ni.
declare la, romantik lah,ahhahahaha, really not my stuff.
tapi dah seme pecinta2 monyet ni dah suke(not all la), so i just let it be la.
trend kot aku rase.lantaklah korang, asal bahgia.
tp bagi aku bahgia kjap aje la.
y sure because bile we just hope dat sweet stuffs i said, the we think everything gonna be ok.
sbb tu aku kate kawen mude ni wasteful.nnti ade pulak org argue, bolehje hadapi susah same2:cinta sejati u!
but my view, asam garam dunia pon tak knal lagi dah pandai nk ckp mcm tu.
byklah argument nye, but aku prefer laid low n enjoy on being myself.

bukan ape,when u haf strong feeling towards the person u love most,it’ll be like magnet
maksudnye we all know that its there.tak payah nk declare2.
it is understandable.that’s kind of relation that i opt to
meaningnya mcm merpati sejoli lah.seme perfect altogether.
but senang la bagi aku nk ckp mcm ni sbb aku lelaki.hahhahaha
well,dats the point of writing dis, sedapkan agau sendiri xD
but still,personally there is no rush on having serious relation.
that time will come for the perfect one.
yg akan menerima penangan cintaku..ahhahahaha <3<3<3
y waste time n effort searching when i know she is always there.
just let time be the hero here.

well skang ni mmg tgh admirer kat sumbdy.kire mcm sumber inspirasilah
alaaa,same la mcm zaman skolah dlu, minat kat senior o cikgu yg cute2 tu.
tak berani ckp but main jeling2 je.itu dululah.
nw same la jugak, but more carefull in choice making la.
y haf to start sumthing when not giving hope.
so im not starting anything here.
tak fair lah for org yg i admire tu.if she noticed, well lucky lucky me!
if tak,then tak kesah pon.she been there pon as like sumbody to stand along to

well the one i admire mmg lah haf all the perfect score.(for now lah)
i really wish to haf sumone aside like her.
bt i really dun haf the gut to let it be more that serious one.
its to precious for herself.tak kesahlah syok sendiri pon, as long as i am hepi.
bknnye aku penakut ke ape,cume aku rase tak fair for her at dis moment to spell it out.
as i said,the time will come for the perfect one.
im not in a rush anyway, there more to go thru in dis youthful life.
ckuplah knal si dia.it makes my world turn up side down
atleast i know sumbody like her existed.the perfect dewi.

well i rest my stand here.seme org ade hak masing2 mcm name derang nk fill their lives happily.
ive heard dis perumpaman2 tentang love and marriage.
tp aku rase that really are just all about usaha n masa.
if u really want it,the time will surely come.
for me,now is just not really the time for it xD.
no string attached~

lafaz kalam dengan nama Allah,tuhan yg pemurah lagi mengasihani

entah apesal la ttibe nk menulis dlm bahasa melayu.
mmg harapannya akan tunggang langgang.
aku bukannya org bahasa,seni atau lain2.
but still org melayu aku ni.
maybe ade la skek2 campur.melayu kan byk rumpun
mungkin takut nnti silap p’gunaan ke etc2 la.
klo tulis in enlish tu,sungguh2 la nk semuanya accurate.
so kali in as intro for 1st bolehla carca merba.
baru nak bertatih~

penat sunnguh la carik mane2 link yg boleh translate specific term.
mcm2 link jumpe.
tapi dbp punye mmg agak low class la.
taktau la problem server ke,tapi susah nk carik maksud sum words.
yg byk kluar result kamus fr indonesia.
aduh masalahla~
obviousnye mmg still mix la my bahasa.
malu pon ade, sedih lagilah.

maybe pengaruh berckp dgn org tiap2 hari rasenye.
campur2.
boleh je nak betulkan tatabahasa,kosa kata etc2.
tapi less prone.janggal pon ade.
mungkin kne dengar lagu melayu kot baru boleh improve xD
environment effects mostly.
tapi lagu2 skang seme jiwang sgt.bahse tinggi!hahhahah
susah nak faham.
tadi punyelah serabut log in kat link dbp.
nak carik maksud ‘angau’.
takde result for angau!!
=="

pasrah lagi kat situ.
so tringat la balik zaman2 skolah dlu.
btapa rajinnye membe neh usung kamus dewan yg berat tu.
usung ilmu takpe
tp mmg btullah nak sgt tau maksud angau.
istilah ni universal lah.byk sgt maksud.
knelah bwat sumting dlm hidup supaya tak buang masa.
angau ni mcm buang masa.berblog ni pon mcm wasting time.
mcm angau ckp sorang2 blog neh.
skang ne rajinlah nak tulis sbb dok terperam kat bilik T.T
ade la jgak nk tuka link.mayb to other blog platform.
boleh tau viewer n tuka info etc2.
berinfo lah skek.skang neh sgtlah lame.

nk ckp pasal angau xtly.
sbb tu la sampai crash mahu tulis in bahasa melayu.
bahasa jiwa bangsa.cikgu bm aku yg cute dlu yg ksitau.
rugilah klo tak tak guna atau ckp bm.
mungkin ni last posting kot.kot.
berblog ntuk sedapkan rasa hati.
berangau macam-macam.
hampir 3 tahun!

wahwahh..pjg gle intro!!

sambung lain kali~

in the name of allah the most gracious and the most merciful

there is no significant about the topic on what im about to write.
it just that i need to write this so that it’ll be a cool remembrance.

its when i found this writing on how men can be so delusional at times.
it was a knowledge-wrecking when i bumped into dis
thou it haf truthful insight, but so emotionally dramatized.
easy word,men cannot be trusted.
so why put thrust in a relationship if this is the fact.
well thats what i call life.
or maybe our generations nowadays are influenced by movies dramas etc2
or also too excessive in having entertainment .

there are loads of major factors  when we speak about this.(thrust issues)
but still,why must have all dis kind of perspectives.
i dont say it is bad,but in a way,it does sound like one.
speaking so, i once haf a talk about this.
a talk with two different person with absolute different views:
1.too imaginative
2.securely objective
great hearts feel alike
i really fonded with both cnversations.

well u choose the way u like most.
for me, i lke both!
but the second person was really compelling.
she sounded really firm yet with deep imagination.
truthfully, when i came wif thrust issues,both have the same answer:
they dont!! xD
well thats my provocation xtly.
people give n receive thrust to whom they know the best.

the girl which firstly in deep imagination, wasn’t suited me well.
stating love is all etc2 despite the situation is worsening,irked me.
it shud be a responsible action.
not just taken for granted.
easy to say than to be done eh?
whats the meaning with sacrificing when u have more to get than to give o vice versa?
reckless abandon.

analogically,u have two colorish flowers in ur hands.
but one is blooming lively while another is firmly synthetic.
for me, it had always been the natural essences.
pure beauty.
i sounded skeptical of being hate.
there i need to reclaim myself n position to give more love n stop hating.
but once there, it had always been there.(more love :D)

you should judge yourselves.
it is just a matter of opinion.
there is nothing else matter than what u feel utmost to ur life.
maybe i just suited those which is not in additional preservatives.
PURE AND LIVELY!
maybe and hopefully~

hey.

formality depends on situation.seriously pls take note about this.
but well, it does matter to be polite when u r speaking about formality.
yet the judgment is all not yours to receive.
when people tends to generalize issues, just know that it is not your total fault of being  ignorance.

so enough bout the intro.
the story that im bout to tell is my ignorance about the obvious.
some sort saying  that is ignorance is bliss.
i once get used to this.
but time is a healer.
it  makes you learn about things that u found cool, special etc2.
how ignorance i can be so that love-matter is easily taken for granted.
well interpret my situation as u like, but what love-matter?
for laughing out loud, i love people that see me thoroughly.
it really make me felt in love at the first sight.
even if i’ve known them for a long period of time.

see there.it is time that became the healer.
the point here is not me.
it is the person that comes around u n having a big change in your life.
i really dont want dis kind of ppl being erased from my life.
it is not just a mere friendship.
it is also my life.
!!!
this kind of person that i would like to be part of me.
the ‘dewi’ xD
for a simple conversation, she is felt all around
the question is, am i worth for her?
well that’s just a dream which left all ignorance-asshole-likeme-jerks miss this ‘dewi’.
why just dream?why don’t have myself be outspoken?
well obviously, that is how total ignorant i am being.

as a ease to myself, hope is just the last resort.
hoping for?the obvious of course.
well at least my wish had come true.
having the feeling for the person to share part of your life.
it is more than stomach filled with beautiful flowers!
well i know it is just not me who have dis feelings.
she also felt it.

for the time being,i just let those words of her be a close part of mylife.
you.pls don’t turn yourself back on me.
even you are ignoring this, now i know how it is felt to be ingored.
for this, i thank u my life~

in the name of Allah the most gracious n most merciful.

blogging-so called diary is just my type.
pointing notes just keep u on acknowledge things more precisely.
really,i hate reading monotonously~

beauty come first when on perfect values.
once i heard this fr my brother: practice makes perfect-but nobody is perfect
well,go figure that

so here the story.
suppsedly i enhance my vocab both on literature n medic-terms, but i have wasted so much time.
regret make no sense since i am a normal human.
for me time is medicine.
reasoning stuff logically is totally cool.
it just about time and accuracy.

enough for the introduction.

everybody can make judgment, but can u concur?
well see,that is why second look is important.
it has always been.
so that you wont slip  the total obvious,  not to mention the backhand view.
for this, i am against for love at first sight.
there is no such thing but i am surely felt for it most of the times.
why is there many times?
you judge on your own.
for me it just a damn on second look!

righteous to say, i haf to listen thousands of long-ricocheting  blabs  from my mother for me  to  love the more and to the most
so you see, time become the medicine there.
it is all a good logical-reasoning behind all of this.
from where do we get this?
the almighty Allah.

i make an assumption to relate on other stuffs:work,food,love,sex,open-relationship etc2.
need to be reminded because i am an absent-minded on most typical things.
that’s me.
i need to make a to-do list for this summer holidays.
people changes and so do i.
it is just about time.
u have the analogy,just concur!

to be updated…

footnote:
*i hate ppl that self-recognize-well honey,i wish you r having a better life now
*well i am changing

…

apartment hotel,vienna.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

well,its been a while thou ^^.

when time flies by,great things happen.

i almost have a feeling to tell a load today, but it feels like just like other note-jotting for me:plain and understandable.

while speaking so, it is hard being neglected when u r fulled of yourself towards the person u shared loads of stuffs.

evryone wif "lame" relationship feels it:sense of non-benificial one.  *lame=senseless

but for me, it has always been great!but i’ve generalized it to be lame:just for suiting my recent needs.

so, that IS me.self-centered-noodleloaf-smartass jerk.xD

well, i admit it-since i felt like that toward person that i had respected for.Had.

it irritates me the MOST when people dont know when to apologize:it gives really bad impressions.

i dont really take things negatively.it sucks all your charms out :p

well everything have its explaination.and for me it had been a great-prolonged steps toward maturity.Had.

people says they move on.Oh yes, for the positive out-lookers.

there is no turing back rite, it is just a glimpse back for preparing the upcomings. <3

well again, i have my words rest for now.

fyi-im bad with words =="

end.

p/s-footnote:

*my handphone is broken for ages T.T

*my comp haf been reformatted  T.T

*i am so ignorance about this,my bad n all my apologizes

-the sequence of knowing u mostly is broken.

-all i have left is just my concious of remembrance.

-well let it be just the happy ones ^^

-and owh,i feel so dejavu about this in the future,hopefully with other kind of stories.

-and hopefully,you will read dis. *smile