HarLeqUin

1.       Talks about ending

2.       How to get in touch

3.       Life as it is since 4 years ago

4.       Don’t see clearly enuf bout future. lol

5.       Mom was right, most of the time.

6.       I’ll wait this time

7.       Excuses

8.       Stupid people

9.       Thinking hard bout wut to tell

10.      Picture n music

11.      I want to prove myself (laf back)

The End.

I am grateful of what ive achieved now. About everything.

Life is how you define it. Metaphorically all ovit doesn’t last.

For this imaginary friend, im pretty sure it was reaaaally sum gud time I had.

I admit that im a bit rushing on making decisions about handling my recent life.

I dunno whether I’ll remember o not, so I just give some efforts for it =)

Because quoting aini :

‘like all things, first we remember with our brains. sooner or later, we’ll remember with our hearts. so when the brain is confused, our hearts still remember.

dear God, help me remember.’

Dis is sum tiring and tedious stuffs I do for reminiscing things.

Maybe I’ll try photo-shooting later
Getting along bout this, I realize that having my own imaginary friend is my way of escaping tense of problems mounting at those times.

I thought bout marriage, because lotsa influences around.

In a way around, dis too I reckoned could resolve my troublesome life.

I was self-manipulating.

*Comparing now and then, it just the same, ahhaaa *

It wasn’t self-perseverance. Having sumone alongside me would be nice at that time.

It was just mutual-exercise toward maturity.

And I was serious about this.

To top it all, it hadn’t last long as I wish solemnly it cud work perfectly.

*I once introduced by her about saifulislam.com and have my enthusiasm towards marriage stuffs.*

As I said, this is a good way for me for solving slowly my hectic-burdened-life.

But, God is all above everything .i was just a mere planner.

I have my options too at that time, but this particular girl was perfectly un-upsetting 
My mom got sum issues about this, yet having both her and dad’s approval.

And there I was having my vivid stand on proposing her.

The closer I tried to approach, the distance stood longer between us.

And there she was for another 5 posts of mine.

I am pretty puzzle about the sudden lack of interest from her.

And the distance keeps on longing.

I ended up into this realizing lotsa stuffs =)

With mom’s intense feeling is always right most of the time.

I became hay-wired about this, and get some negative feelings all on her.

It’s true when love is expecting and giving only for her.

I can’t blame people and their doing’s for this including saifulislam.com. lol

People have feelings and thoughts also.

It’s just because I really don’t clearly see and feel true love.

But what I know now is that for obtaining that sincerity for loving is just as simple of having good deeds.

That is what I feel.

Maybe I resolved some bad judgments or well-said critical one’s, it deepens my way of thinking.

My past time wasn’t freely wasted, because I’m enjoying my peak of youthful time.

im preparing for the future now, by God’s will in the good ways.

For having winning ramadhan this year, im being thankful to God for keeping my life going.

All I have right now is seeking and giving forgiveness toward others especially to ain.

Thank you for having me and surely this time, I will always wait.

Waiting for true love.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri.

Maaf seagungnya.

Wallahu a’alam.

p.s :

This post might be the end of harlequin.

I had so much fun here.

For future contact pls find me in facebook : nasaei ap alqarawi.

Thanks for the time =)

~ by harlequin86 on September 21, 2009.