HarLeqUin

Bismillah and peace be upon you.

I did started dis post wif if…but I rewrote it.

I do care. Bout most of the things that resolve my world(sound riak ==)

And at this point, I start to free myself of being so.

I am lack of reading good stuffs recently, so don’t bother at my writing.

And owh, I do plagiarize from movies n others from what ppl say.

Because I have nothing.

At some point, which is critical I do wanted to feel being bad.

Sharing a story;

I did some personality quizzes on facebook.

To my extent of lust and knowledge (lol ), I generally act as a good person.

Since then, ive done so much thinking and personalizing my own self.

Im so much deeply indulge in bad stuffs rather doing good deeds.

Maybe lack of doing it(the good deeds).

How pathetic it would be to haf those kinda feeling, yet agreeing with it.

And then, it snapped. i went haywire.(this writing really irritate me as if im praising myself)

So and so, I really mengamuk tak tentu pasal psl ppl goodness.

What I felt was really a deep, black and stench of self-mocking.

Suddenly, there are lots of hate, and its stacking.

I pondered that all those quizzes result just; as they way I wanted to define it

I got issues about this lol.

Ramadhan pls come fast.( why wait ramadhan lols)

I need the time of forgiveness as too many sins that I’ve done.

God pls help and protect me from doing more sins and those that are unseen.

I want to be decent and honest servant and ricochet always said that im a bad person.

So when it gonna last?

Maybe I see it as a reminder on how insignificant I am.

Urghh…I really need a good read and some fun music to listen to right this instance.

And I do hate you.

I seek forgiveness for that, from you.

And from everybody who reads this.

May we live in Allah’s bless.

~ by harlequin86 on July 19, 2009.