HarLeqUin

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

negativity-extreme skepticism.

i was in bad mood last time upon writing #2.

just as the same now, but a bit better.

not much cheerful as i hoped to be.

its nothing much blissful than spread ur negativity toward others.

whom else that concern rather than pitiful-me.

when i’m engulfed with anger or deprived over sumthing, it is hard for me to manage it.

can’t really think clearly.

yet, there were smiles thou, but not affected much compared to the negativism.

the feeling surely portray a total alien side of mine.slithers with darkness all over.

fault of regret are among the post effects, and then come depression.

and when the smile comes, it outshines the world out of me.

i do tried to ignore it.

as one stands with the saying ignorance is bliss, really up to sumthing actually.

it is difficult to filled urself with forgiveness.

i am not a good writer truthfully.

most of the words are plagiarized based on my readings.

urghh..blank!

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wow, really,  when i read it back, does creeps me a lot.

thou, just same monotonous jotting i found bout my writing.

i can feel the shallowing darkness that surrounds me.

scarry2.

and to my extent of knowledge and feelings as a human, being happy is good!

just noticed!

how on earth could i missed that.

yet again, total obvious.missed,again, the obvious.

as i become aware of, i was really had a deep-scrutiny-thoughts about sumthing i found important as part of myself.

my recent life-to mention.

there’s go the power of concentration!

it made me totally unaware of other logical stuffs around me.

so i come to my senses how small and ill-knowledge i was being.

it just came all of a sudden.

i am blessed so that i can be humbled for being thankful, again.

to whom else-but to Allah.

still, there must be a reason for my madness-angry, not satisfied, solemnity.

and what makes me happy right this instance:

the presence of sumone, which make me lively and vice versa.

thank you for being alive, so that i still know that u are doing fine
she  was lost all of a sudden; without any word-which left me all alone, scared, timid, sad and full of remorse.

but again, it was me who was lost, on the exact way around.

both are just the same with different purposes yet the feeling of having you there at the end really have liven up things around me.

for addition, i wrote some notes so that i wont forget what i am gonna blab about.

these are some that are readily prepared for the next post.

*never give up  on the thing that makes u smile

*lover can make superb fren but fren cant make one perfect lover.

*dont take friendship personal

*kim ah jong-beautiful girl

*sharing-cars fiat abarth 500 esseesse

p/s-i am just an absent-minded person; for sumthing that just dont interest me.

sharing urs might help a lot!

~ by harlequin86 on April 12, 2009.